He hasn't slept that good since, but it hasn't been too bad. I fully expect many horrendous nights ahead of us before this time of life is fully behind me, but as the days, weeks and months tick by, I'm starting to see a light at the end of the tunnel. I love my little koala bear to no end, and there's something so sweet about him being attached to me all the time. I will treasure these moments, for sure. But I think I treasure my sanity and rest a little bit more. I'm a better person for everyone if I can get a little bit of peace and rest in my day. It's a tall order at this stage in the game, so I'll take what I can get.
I feel like we've really turned a corner since vacation. At the 6-month-old mark, Graham is sitting up confidently and playing happily for long stretches. Like 10 or 15 minutes at a time. Is that long? I don't know, but it's a dream for us because we didn't get this kind of relief on our first go at parenting. As Dylan exclaimed yesterday, "This is so liberating!" G2 also sits in his high chair and eats anything and everything we throw his way. It makes mealtime so much better. Especially breakfast. No more placating a screaming baby in-between bites of food and failed attempts to brew a cup of coffee. Again, I fully expect regressions and teething and growth spurts or whatever before it becomes a real, permanent thing. I do plan to enjoy it while it lasts, though.
I'm thinking that throwing in a bottle or two of formula every day may have contributed to the sleep thing and the overall agreeableness. Maybe, maybe not. It's helped to relieve me, and it has made me so much happier. As Dylan keeps saying over and over, "Sometimes your worst self is your best self." I think it's a True Detective quote. I don't even know what that means, and I'm not sure he does either. But I think he's encouraging me to just do what I need to do in order to let things go a little bit and just chill out. I'm finally getting there...
But onto the weekend, shall we? I don't have much to report. Gavin and I went out to the gym and a viewing of Finding Dory. His first movie theater experience ever. It was so cute. I think he liked the popcorn and Icee more than the movie, and we only lasted just over an hour, but it was fun nonetheless. I didn't go with high expectations, but I was so excited to bring him anyway. I won't be rushing back to the theater with him, but I'm happy I finally got to do this after talking about it for months. Meanwhile, Graham treated Dylan to a two hour (!!) nap while we were gone, and then they watched our friend Nate play golf on TV. He's on a hot streak on the Web.com tour, and nothing gets Dylan more amped than his friends' golf games being televised.
Sunday morning was waffles for breakfast, and then it was off to church. Graham went to the nursery for the first time and did great. Gavin, of course, had a blast with all the kids in his room. We went home to eat lunch and then brainstormed where we should go with our afternoon. But then we turned on HGTV and just hung out and relaxed in-between parenting duties and usual weekend chores, and we never went anywhere. I even fell asleep in the glider while attempting to get Graham down for an afternoon nap. It was leftovers for dinner and a shared bottle of wine for D and me, and I'm closing out the weekend feeling more relaxed and mentally unfrazzled than I have in a very long time.
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| Two guys, one tub |
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| Melt my heart |
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| When you asked Gavin about his day, he said "I ate popcorn." |
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| Gavin selling fireworks. This was our Sunday. |
Speaking of HGTV, it's the new love in our lives. Everyone always told me that I'd love it, and I didn't disagree. I knew the basic premise, but I just never took a second to slow down to check it out. But then, randomly, we spent one night in Oregon watching House Hunters with Tom, and we've been hooked ever since. The best part is that Gavin will actually tolerate it instead of demanding to watch Blaze as soon as the TV turns on. In the last six months, we have been busier than we've ever been- Dylan with his multiple jobs and me with the kids and keeping up with this house. Throw in the other odds and ends, hobbies and interests, friends and obligations, and never-ending sleeplessness and exhaustion...and we've never spent so little time together. This weekend was just the best. And to boot, Gavin finally seems caught up on his rest and has been pleasant and agreeable...for the most part, anyway. I don't see many more lazy weekends of watching Property Brothers on our agenda in the coming weeks, but this was just the reboot that we needed. We are ready to rock and roll.
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